Life Update...always fun

So, instead of Facebook stalking cute guys...ha ha...joke???? I am focusing on school and work. 


I just got a job and Im super excited for it. Because of scheduling reasons and everything I don't know when I start yet but hopefully soon!!!


Other then that i have focused on school and HALLOWEEN.


And...there is this sorta guy thing situation whatever...that made sense in my head.


A guy I've known for like ten years who moved away a few years ago, not far but like half an hour. He and I have been reconnecting. 


THIS is where guys confuse me....


For the first two weeks we were texting and doing nightly phone calls and everything and he initiated almost all of them. Now we don't text more then once or twice a week and we also don't do phone calls very often. 


Now, im not very broken up about this which is how I can tell if I REALLY like someone...I don't REALLY like this guy. He's sweet and protective and listens and is everything good 


(Except he does light drugs, but no matter what drug he does it bothers me a fucking LOT!)


Even though he has amazing qualities doesn't mean Im gonna like him more then my last guy who pulled me around and played me, and I don't. Its weird we all say we want the good guy but they just aren't as interesting.


I think I need a good, hot, guy who can make me laugh not because he's making fun of someone but because we find humor in the most random places... and someone who i trust with my life and who keeps me on my toes but makes me feel safe.


Is it too much to ask to find a guy who has all this and takes care of himself? Someone who goes to the gym, gets hair cuts, eats right, acts like a man and ya know...showers!


Sure, it sounds mean to say that the guy has to be attractive but its what makes me notice a guy. Its what makes me want to see if he can make me laugh until I cry and talk all night to him about my greatest fears and dreams...


Man I am so tired today its honestly ridiculous!!! My eyes are fogging over as I type this. I think im going to go to bed now. NIGHT

Moving On

I find, now this is just me, but I find that it takes me a while to stop obsessing and liking people who I had strong feelings for. I cannot merely eat ice cream, cry for a night and move on. For instance, the last guy who screwed me over, I liked him for two weeks and it took me two weeks to move on and stop asking my friends what he was doing.

Now I am over it. He can date who he wants and do what he wants and I dont really care. I think the fact that guys can screw us royaly and we still have feelings for them (IM NOT THE ONLY ONE!) is amazing. It goes against everything strong women believe. If someone screws us over to such a huge extent, we should cut them off and not care what or WHO they do. Yet for boys, its a different story. We still care, and if not in a caring way an obsessive keep them away from everyone else way. Strange.

I do want to mention something happy though. And before I do, I want to say nothing is happening yet, and I will not go into detail because whenever I tell you about a pre-mature thing I jinx it!

I found a new crush. We flirt, and its nice.

Thats as far as Im taking that until it progresses.

He said he was going to take me out.
yay.

So, I want to know, has anything like this happened to you, you take forever to move on or do you just move on in an instant? Lemme know!